for a long time in my life, I feel like I've always been under immense self-pressure, consumed by anxiety, under the grasp of not knowing.

Fear of the unknown they call it. -not knowing what is going to happen in the next minute, the next hour, the next day, the next month, the next year, 10 years from now?

el-fin is my way of allowing these thoughts of uncertainty to settle. Do I allow these thoughts to anchor me down in a sea of regret? or do I break free?

In my last moments on earth, I want to be able to say, with the full power of conviction, “I lived! and now it’s time to rest” To have lived vigorously and experienced complete happiness. In my last moments, I hope to sing a chorus of celebration and not a melancholy of regret.